Finding a Voice

If you follow me on Facebook or any of my other social sites, you know that the last few months have been an amazing trial for me.  The actual illness itself was actually the beginning of a far more difficult journey of recovery.

I’ve watched a wide variety of illness in family members and friends throughout my life.  It literally defined certain members of my family.  However, I can’t say that I fully understood it until I began the challenge myself.

At the end of January, I was probably the strongest I’ve ever been in my life.  I had completed month one of the Insanity 60-day challenge and was heading into a recovery week before starting month two.  I was at a lower weight than I have ever been in my adult life.  I was feeling good every day, speaking on a regular basis and wondering where I could find more time for personal ventures.

Then I noticed that I was starting to come down with a fever…

Here we stand in May, months after all of that happened and I have been trying to find my voice since I’m still not able to consistently use my own (and still won’t for a minimum of two more months).  I also had more forced rest, which typically means “thinking time,” to face the state of what my life has become.

I’ve always loved the art of writing.  I also take immense pride in the craft of creation.  But ever since my youth, I’ve also mastered the art of building “half of a sandcastle” and walking away or forgetting.  I have a million great ideas and spend a lot of time building a quarter of them and then moving on to another.  It’s especially ironic given the fact that I coach hundreds of people a month on why they SHOULDN’T do this – so you can be assured that I know this from experience!

This website is a fantastic example – it was the product of a fantastic idea I had to create more direct connections with the many people that I work with or follow on a daily basis.  Instead, it became another half-built sandcastle.  Actually, this one may have been closer to 75%.  Even though it’s a pretty standard template, I still like it and I’m gonna stick with it!

So, I wanted a voice – it was just a matter of choosing one.  Here I am!